Saturday, March 31, 2007

My brand new TV

Two days back mom and i had a tiff over a television program..i was watching F.R.I.E.D.N.D.S when my mom barged in and changed the channel...this resulted in a huge tiff between my mom and me....and dad caught between constant cross fire...he now got me my own after another a heated argument...and few thousand rupees later now i have my own tv...and i am happy and at it finally pays off to fight with!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007


An ambitious exploration of the immigrant experience.....

Namesame is about the Ganguli family who migrate to New york...Their journey of life over three decades...After surviving a life-altering train wreck, engineer Ashoke (Irfan Khan) enters into an arranged marriage with the beautiful Ashima (the singularly named Tabu) and they move to a very modest apartment in the very foreign setting of Queens.

As time passes, the couple has a son and a daughter, as well as a comfortable suburban life in Yonkers. But rapid assimilation takes its toll on their first-generation son Gogol (Penn), who as a teenager feels neither Indian nor American, and who is particularly enraged that his father has made him seem even more foreign and weird by naming him after a Russian novelist who died a virgin.

After graduating from college and going to work as an architect, Gogol starts calling himself Nick and dates a princess (Jacinda Barrett) to put his background behind him.

But his father's in death causes Nick to rethink his position and to eventually become engaged to a gorgeous fellow Bengali named Moshumi (Zuleikha Robinson), who has developed her own forms of rebellion.

Nair crams a lot into the movie's two-hour running time, which at times seems rushed - Gogol's sister Sonia (Sahira Nair), who has her own issues with the Indian diaspora, gets particularly short shrift.

But overall, this gorgeously designed and photographed movie artfully depicts the immigrant experience in ways that transcend its setting, melding Hollywood and Bollywood storytelling techniques to weave a tale a large audience will relate to.

Many scenes play like observed life, with Bollywood stars Khan and Tabu offering finely limned performances as parents struggling to find their way.

Penn's charismatic, loose-limbed work as the confused Gogol helps Nair avoid the earnestness that afflicts so many films of this kind, and he's quite capable of handling the big dramatic moments as well.

You don't have to be Indian to love "The Namesake."

Long after the credits roll up....and audience moves out of the wonders....lets mind drift off thinking about hard facts of life....children will grow up and go away, has to endure and overcome the loss of a loved must go on...because time and live waits for none....taking life in our stride is the best way to lead it...Namesake makes you think...leaves a deep impact on your life....and makes you want to mould life your way...because life never gives you scope to make just live to regret

Monday, March 26, 2007

living a nightmare..

i just had the most pathetic day of my life....i dint quite sleep well last that made me feel lazy and grumpy...moreover my daily quota of full House and F.R.I.E.N.D.S was unfulfilled,it just dint get telecast and this marked the day going down hill...this morning i spoke to samik far too balance nearly got exhausted..then i noticed that i was late...i was due for class in 45 minutes and i still had to take a shower...somehow i managed to reach college only to have my classes late...then Debashree di gave back our papers...and i was shocked,the paper that i thought went well went awful..and i couldn't believe my a non academic exam i fared so bad...i was practically in tears and worse still everyone else scored well...all except me....moreover...Italian class was such a bore...and i was awfully sleepy..thankfully met samik afterwards so my mood was somehow lifted...and then as time wore on i was more and more tired,exhausted and sleepy with a splitting headache.....moreover got into a HUGE fight with she got on my nerves....and now i am going without dinner and i am terribly hungry...uff!what a day...almost living a nightmare throughout the day...but thankfully its coming to an end

Saturday, March 24, 2007


India's World Cup 2007 run all but ended yesterday after the convincing victory by Sri Lanka. Barring a highly unlikely victory of Bermuda over Bangladesh two days from now, India are out.

Painful as this early exit is, there is a part of me which senses some good coming out of it. In the last two or three years Indian cricket is being successfully and rapidly morphed by various vested interests into a sort of sensational marketing machine. The BCCI has become a lucrative body with high profile politicians throwing in all their might to control it. Media, with its constant look out for sensationalist talking points, also played a big role by coining terms like "Team India" and "Men in Blue". As a result a realistic connection between team's performances and fans' expectations was destroyed.

Ground realities being disregarded, desires, passions, and emotions were exploited. It looked as if people were cashing in while the going was still good. Widely covered stories in the media of people shaving their heads, offering prayers for the team, naturally led to the ridiculous reactions to the loss. Now a national calamity will be declared and a multitude of theories will be offered as explanations. Much has been written about the financial disaster that will befall if India fails to reach Super 8. I see that as one bright spot in this gloom. It might bring in some much needed balance to cricket following in India.

Now our only hope is.Bermuda beating Bangladesh in tomorrow's match which would paved way for us to at least enter the super sixes,a chance that we ill deserve...if team India puts on such dismal performance..then BCCI should contemplate not sending a under performing team to the World Cup,rather than sending a team which plays like a B grade them....and bring shame to a cricket crazy country like ours,where cricket is our second religion...

This Week That Was.....

19th-22nd march 2007,AFSU hosted the sanskriti.....for those who don't know what sanskriti is,it is Jadavpur University,fest...and this being my first was one helluva rocking part was..even my Italian class dint take place so it left us with more free time to enjoy..and boy!dint i have fun...

day 1..
quizzing and antakshari was fun and so was second earth and they were was great fun..specially the evening as we all chatted and lazed around

day 2
sweltering heat and parched throat..eastern rounds went well and the posters we designed looked great too...the drama "yeh" was wonderful and very inspiring...the "chou" dance too.was quite entertaining

FAS organized a blood donation camp for helping the injured people of nandigram...i wasn't sure of it because i had this nagging thought,that,the needles and the equipment were not hygienic and once i saw the sealed kit being used with everyone i was relieved..and since dad gave me the green signal..i went about with the process....after a lot of pricking and vein was found and amidst pain and friends encouraging me i finally did it...despite fear and anxiousness killing me as the vampire[the Doctor] was sucking my blood into the pouch...but all for a good cause...liberated at of the guilt that i could do nothing...i have done my bit to help people in distress...samik was pissed at all this but after a lot of bickering he came around..

day 4 sanskriti comes to an end
the evening was spent i basket ball court...lazing with friends and cracking stupid jokes and whiling time away...then saw SHELLAJIT was good...and then came LOKHICHARA...and for the first time i enjoyed watching a progressive rock Bengali band who specialized in death was just awesome...balmy evening..with cool breeze ruffling our hair...soon without notice it started to pour and we ran for cover....thank god khyati's car dropped me was way past 10pm and with the rain it would have been difficult to come back home...

watching sanskriti for the first time...was really an experience of its was hot and sweaty but with friends around even that didn't matter...we just went with the flow and had a ball..maybe our fest was in the grand scale as the engineering faulty but i am a person satisfied with smallest of the whole event was a memorable and a fun filled one...

yesterday at a friends place...we had a booze party..well actually the guys boozed as the girls contented themselves with just sprite,pakora and later on coffee,specially made by me...don't smirk!no one fell one said it was yucky! so that was a relief!we had the best adda session ever...what with almost 10 of us huddled in a small room...some sprawled on the bed,while others squeezing to fit and others making themselves comfortable on the floor..i even missed my Italian class to have fun...and my god!it was hilarious!

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Midnight Fantasies

Turned in for the night
I pull the covers up
The music is drones on
Your thought comes to my mind
And my face lights up with a smile

I toss and turn, feel restless within,
Unable to sleep, I let myself dream.
Of a world with just,
You and me.
Starry eyed, feeling happy within.

I sigh! Wishing you were here
Cuddling up to me
Whispering sweet nothings
Nuzzling my neck
And holding me tight.

I am enveloped in your love,
Your thoughts fillings me
Taking over and overpowering me
As sleep gently beckons to me,
I let myself drift and drown in your thoughts

Friday, March 16, 2007

BENGAL up in flames,rise and protest

Mothers raped in front of their kids,youth first shot in their genitals and then shot mercilessly thrown into the taken away from farmers who gives me food we eat....government says they will give compensation...but how long will that last?employment where??as laborers...what if when there is no work?what happens to the sentiments that are attached to the land....the legacy of generations?what with the land that gives them their food....all this in the name for progress...for building industries....i say fuck the progress!what use is that kind of progress?that takes place on the burning pyres of thousands of farmers,powerless to protest....what progress?if it comes at the cost of tears of blood......who cares for that kind of government who is there by the people, and for the people but does no good for the people....threatening poor and harmless farmers to give up life...young girls being raped and brutally murdered...youth being slaughtered....any kind of protest being done away with...the left front government is doing just what they this democracy??what about our say in all this?after all,we vote such crooks to power...don't we have a right to voice our opinion?after all this our government too....

youth,elderly people,women and even children...are being put to death for not giving up their land...some who have given and run away...gave up their land at half the worth...and those who stick back and protest they are being made to stand in a row and then being aimed and shot this democracy????

i have been mute spectactator to singur issue and now nandigram..but seeing such manslaughter i couldn't hold back the tears and my heart from wrenching in pain....we are in a plush houses...with gadgets at our finger ac,tv,pc frigde ..we are leading a luxuries life where somewhere into the villages farmers are fighting tooth and up even their last in constant terror of being brutally murdered,yet they protest when their mother,their land,the legacy of their fore fathers had entrusted to them,which they someday hope to give to their own children..being taken away....

what a world are we into?where any protest against the wrong is silenced...what future will we give our kids...mothers rather kill their kids in their wombs than let them being born into this world of tyranny in mask of democracy....fuck democracy!we would rather have dictatorship than have a dgoverment claims to be democratic and fails to live up to its aim....

raise you voice in protest...don't sit back and think-"its not happening to us why should we bother"..its our democratic right to protest and seek redess.... it is nadigram tomorrow it will be some one else's kids are being raped and killed tomorrow it could be could be you and me....protest...its our birth right...don't be ignorant..rise...and fight for the right....

"Denounce State Terror in Nandigram, West Bengal"
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signing yourself.


Thursday, March 15, 2007

How Opal Mehta Got Kissed,Got Wild and Got A LIfe

I was reading this book by kavya vishwabathan,and finished it just few hours back and i must say i found the book a very amusing one....i know all that stuff about how its not worth calling it a work of literature,after all it is plagiarised one...despite all this...i enjoyed reading it and had a good laugh....the book how opal mehta got kissed,got wild and got a life is about how an Indian Desi girl of 19,has been rejected from a dream college,reason being the lack of fun,romance and actually her parents go out on a damage control spree,,,get her a tailor made life,a perfect boy to kiss and a fool proof way to get a life,with the help of personal websites,flow charts,lists,endless shopping,and then a makeover that changed the life of opal for the rest of her life...a mindless popular fiction,good enough to kill time and amuse oneself...a must read for all are the few facts i found most amusing....

"Dad sighed."Dean Anderson suggested you need some romance,''From what i've read so far.'he picked up the nearest copy of Allure,the word kiss appears eighty seven times in each magazine issue."

"Mother said,impatiently,'you said something that resonated with asked "how can i get wild if we're always around,so this weekend we're going to visit aunt priya,and you can be home,throw your own little party and get wild."

after reading the book,i finally realized how lucky i was...i choose my own subjects in school,didn't consult my parents,and in fact it was they who made me take my own decisions,they rejoiced with me,respected my choices....and went along with almost every career choice i had..their never tried to plan my life for me...neither did they impose their thoughts and made me follow them...i have had a pretty much uneventful school life....i dint need to prove myself or my more ways than one...this book has humbled me...despite various arguments i have with my mum dad..i now value them more...plagiarisms or influenced...the book is a good read and proves to be quite an entertainer...

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

poetry reading session

my seniors in college arranged a 'poetry reading' session today...and Rohit informed me of it few days back and i completely misunderstood the whole today on being asked if i had gotten my poetry i was shocked and surprised...well firstly,i dint know that we were supposed to read ur own poetry and secondly,i have never made public my poems,except maybe on my blog.

after however agreeing to read my poem,i rushed to a Debashree di,our professor and she took my blog URL and went about helping me get my print out...since in the HOD's office none but the prof's are allowed to use the my dismay one of the printers we were using weren't working....luckily Suchorita mam,who was checking her mail in the other asked us to mail her the poems so that she could take the print outs for me...soon it was printed and i had them with me...what an embarrassment it have my professor knowing my blog url and for them to read my poems..its too overwhelming and embarrassing.....

the reading session was reeally poems were appreciated...Raka,my senior even told me to make it into a song...and to see people appreciate my writing filled my with the confidence i lack within me regarding my creation...Rohit read the poet's empathy,it is my favorite poem written by him.i simply loved Prakriti's wrote a poem on "mana"..and it was hilarious...Ghalib's poem was heart rendering and so was the thought behind the poem written by Satish....this was the first time i attended a poetry reading session and i enjoyed myself to the hilt...we might even start a poetry club and have such sessions more often....

Monday, March 12, 2007

our first meeting with Salsa Dilshan Dasgupta

Salsa Dilshan Dasgupta is the daughter of Dr Sayantan Dasgupta and Dr Seemantini Gupta...who are our[Jadavpur University,Comparative literature Deptartment]professors...this is our first meeting with Salsa.....

Proud parents...sir and mam

who all went... Khyati,Satish,Abhinandan,Me,Tania and Rohit

mam and all of us

sir with all of us

Friday, March 09, 2007

satan's advocate

I was just wondering can you hate a person that much,that whenever you think of that person you get repelled?well this must be the first but sadly this is true in my case....i was stupid enough once to befriend a serpent who uses people to serve his purpose...but i learn't the lesson the hard way but despite being bruised i am in one piece now...what's interesting Dorian gray....this person too is showing traits of a underdeveloped,most shrewd and calculating and a most grotesque and repelling nature which is now reflecting on his social image...funny how low one can stoop just to mould people to attain popularity just to show gratitude to people,who helped him weasel into a place which he ill deserved...thus these people made an opening for this satan's advocate into a semi-civilized society making it completely a satanic reign.....

i had always heard elders and to an extent believed in this theory myself...that sooner or later the evil always gets punished...there is a God who over sees everything and eventually does justice....but in this case i wonder when justice will be served...a person who tried to destroy several lives....he scars the minds...ruins the peace of mind....uses people....tarnishes images...just to suit himself...but what justice will be done to him or to those he has wronged?will he go scot free?or will he get a fate he deserved....may justice prevail..

Thursday, March 08, 2007


The reactions to one of my earlier posts has compelled me to analyze and arrive at a conclusion that often people perceive that somehow i am "little miss sunshine" who is always happy and has triggered off several feelings deep within me...and one of it being sadness....its strange how people think you are always happy when they fail to read in between lines to come to a true conclusion....often people overlook the tear brimmed eyes...or the choked voice or even the the strained expression and think...oh! here comes the girl who is always smiling and is always happy,nothing ever goes wrong with her,aww!how i envy her...

what happens to the wealth of pain and sorrow that i drown within me to keep up a happy front to people to whom i am the pillar of strength?? ...somehow i have made putting up a front of being happy such a habit that i have forgotten to be "me"..being the responsible one,who cannot do any wrong...the dutiful and obedient,prim and proper girl..ah!just perfect.. and the one,one can turn to when in need...what happens to me? and my wants and the act of being politically correct i have lost track of my needs,somehow i have convinced myself..what is expected out of me is what i actually,suddenly i find myself alone,with no one to turn to,no one to lean upon....maybe i have masqueraded long enough that i have started believing that what i put up is me but now its time people know me...i know i needn't justify myself...after all...this is my blog...i can write whatever i please.but i want to disillusion people about me and want then to know that it is far more difficult to suppress the natural feelings to keep up the positive feeling going than it is to be cynical and depressed...

the other day my senior and fellow blogger told me somehow i haven't learn't the art of putting up a facade or to dissimulate ...somehow when one reads my blog he/she feels that somehow i write to reassure myself...yeah!maybe its right...i do write to reassure engrave memories in my mind so that i never that even in times of unhappiness i know i have had better times...maybe its my defense mechanism...who cares!its the same old me...battered yet the phoenix rising from my ashes...its my belief in positivism that keeps me going....but what saddens me is what people assume without even looking beyond the surface....

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

full house

Ever since i was a kid...full house used to be one of my favorites..along with maybe "I Dream of Jeanie,The Logan Family"...but what is amazing is till date i haven't kind of given up watching this popular sitcom even if i have already seen the episodes for a number of times now...i keep going back....after sometime it kind of grows on you and once it does its very hard to let that explains why even after running for eight seasons and was one of the few prime time sitcoms to have more than 190 episodes...and is quite a favorite among old and young all alike..

its not uber cool like other popular soaps of today,not as flashy as maybe Desperate house wives or Fashion House or even F.R.I.E.N.D.S or for that matter Will and Grace but there is something very endearing about Full House...the Tanner family and friends with Danny,Uncle Jesse,Uncle Joey and three most amazing girls-Dj,Steph and just warms your heart to see little Micheal pulling a fast one on her dad...or the way Dj and Steph guard the dog-mini who walked in their backyard one day,and uncle joey helping them out...

i just saw the Mini-the dog episode and relived my yearning to own a dog through must be fun having a dog...but i would never know :( see puppies born or Danny explaining Steph how 'mini' met her hubby and how the puppies were made..was something i guess we have all gone mama and papa meet and they decide to give birth to a!the best part was 'mini actually gave birth to her puppies on Uncle Jesse's bed much to his dismay...but even he was much awed seeing the pups being was wonderful when the owner came to take Mini away,he actually gifted one of the pups to the girls and best part being,Micheal choosing the puppy that loved Jesse's bed....

though one knows that this is not a reality just some silly sitcom which is made to entertain us...but one cannot help wishing that realities were so perfect and so happy....

Monday, March 05, 2007

fun tests

just saw these tests in a fellow bloggers blog so i thought...why not try them out?

here goes the first one-

Your Five Factor Personality Profile


You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"


You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.


You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.


You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

still more to come-

You Are 52% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

yet more to come-

Your Love Number is 5

You're very open minded, and you could see yourself in any number of interesting relationships.
And being extremely independent, anyone you're with has to give you space.
You approach new lovers like they are a subject, learning everything about them.
But once you've "mastered" a new person, you often feel like exploring some one else!

ain't it scary???

here is a naughty one...

Your Lust Quotient: 34%

You are a fairly lustful person, but nothing out of the norm.
You usually keep your lust under control, but sometimes it gets the better of you.

ah!it gets naughtier...

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic!

You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale.

You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack

It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

just two more more to go...

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

here is the last one..sigh!

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

a day with samik and his family

this must be my best holi ever.....i was invited over to samik's place by his parents for holi.... i have been to his place quite a few times but this must be the most significant one ever.... my day began with a little mishap..where my dad didn't want me to go out in case someone misbehaved and the transport being took a lot of convincing and a bit of fibbing to get out of this sticky condition...i arranged for a friend to meet up at her personally dropped me there and when he left me i hopped on an auto to samik's place....sometimes hiding does seem exciting...i am sure if i had told mum and dad that i am going to meet samik it would have been ok but then its fun at times to try new!

the whole day passed at the blink of an eye...i helped kaku and kakima cook lunch...learned how to fix a fuse...and got some inside information about samik-the was hilarious..taking pot shots at samik,while like a lazy cat he slouched on the sofa watching some old hindi flick...this time the awkwardness of meeting kaku kakima just wasn't there...the comfort level was high and so was the felt like home..i noticed a marked change in them.....they were more open and affectionate towards me.....and for once i wasn't the "friend" but the "daughter" was amazing that kakima,who is usually stern,opening up enough to say that she trust me more than her son,kaku proudly proclaimed that he is lucky to have me-a new addition to his family who is his equal in every way....and that if ever samik is to bring someone else home he will personally see to it that samik rots in was all too overwhelming...and i must say i was very touched.....

in the evening we went on a tour to see their new home...and i was shown "my room" ahem !ahem! was actually samik's room....kaku even asked me ...what are my choices regarding the room and if i found the house acceptable enough to consider living in it...[blush! blush!] we then went to samik's grandmom's place where we had another round of teasing samik...he being an easy was one day filled with so much happiness and fun galore....... its been yet another milestone, a red letter day in my life and i must add its been very overwhelming to see people who were virtual strangers just a year ago,now accepting me as a part of their family and making me feel so loved...

Friday, March 02, 2007

a dash of colour

today we all celebrated holi in college...and my god what a mess...all kinds of colors..powdered,paints and more dreadful gooey stuff....people even used mud water from yesterdays rain and used it on others...eggs too weren't left out....its was a huge messy crowd forgetting everything just living for the moment...while this is one fun site there were others not so amusing...where people were just picked and thrown in the ponds and reservoirs nearby...eggs aimed at people who were totally uninterested to join this madness,poor them drenched from head to toe without any fault of theirs but in the end everyone took the whole event very sportingly..even star ananda came to cover us..just saw the clippings and they came out just wonderful...

are you wondering what i was doing?well i did play holi just a tad bit...usually i stay at home but this time i couldn't resist coming to college to see the even though i was just on a run escaping seniors who were determined to color me in the most unhygienic and dreadful of colors...their loss because they couldnt enter the college building to catch me[playing holi in the buildings is forbidden]moreover i was nicely perched on the ledge..seeing people letting their hair down and having fun...and taking pictures and vedios....then came the drinking session..i tasted "bhang" for the first time and to my immense disappointment i didn't get high even after my feeble but courageous attempt to drink it....but the fact that samik joined me later and played holi with me was the bonus and made my day perfect...