Saturday, May 19, 2007

tears of pain!!

its all in a silent tear....which makes its way down....clenching the heart gripped in pain and unbearable agony...when night comes...and everything is calm..with no one around....it comes out from it hiding place bringing with it the first sense of being alive...it hurts!it hurts damn bad...drowning in the bottomless pit of agony i let my tears purge me...to cleanse my soul of all the wrongs done to me...i swear a thousand promises and a thousand more...but i succumb time after time...despite knowing the fate...and when the tears put up an appearance i know i have failed yet again...hurt increases manifolds and agony rips me apart....silence of the night is punctuated by my muted uncontrollable sobs....a never ending charade it is...tears!tears!tears it is,that makes an outlet of escape....betrayal,misconceptions,desertion all find escape through tears...tears of pain....puffy eyes and soggy pillow sheets..yes these are tears of pain...pain that makes your heart burn with anguish,the numbness that spreads through your veins and the tears that washes all desolation away...

night after night...i toss and turn....i bury my face into the softness of my pillow and in comfort of my bed....i let the darkness soothe my senses....i let the go of the bottled emotion within me....i allow the memories to resurface..and the pain,flow....then wave after wave....in torrents they come....coursing its way down my face....i clutch my sheets...and let it all go...i let the tears flow....images flash in my eye...words ring in my ears....heart wrenches a notch more...i cling to my sanity....i hold on to the hope...i cry silently...as the pain and hurt overpowers me.....in the darkness of the night my grief finds expression in the tears of pain!

in the light if the day...tears of pain masqueraded in smiles and good cheer...pain is forgotten even if momentarily in chores and errands....laughter drowns the cries within...but when the day runs its course....and the night sets in.....with people turning in...their crawl out from their hiding places...tears of pain...soon the sobs subside...and slumber looms ahead threateningly...tears dry leaving its soggy trails...as a new day dawns...pain lurks into the retreating shadows...as i let myself drift into that sweet haven of respite from this harsh harsh world!!

17 comments:

ani said...

(hugs!)

jus these words.. 'dekhiye to lagta hai zindagi ki raahon me ek bheed chalti hai... sochiye to lagta hai bheed me hai sab tanha!'

phoenix said...

@ani
*HUG*

Jeya Anand said...

hey wats wrong???
However expressed well...

`NEFTY said...

You are tagged!

Superunknown said...

touchin n very well written post.... keep faith!!!
Luv
Superunknown

Sharad Mathur said...

this is just so like me... damn im heartbroken.. LOLS

u wud like my last post definitely!
sharad

Suki said...

You'll be alright, girl. Hang on. I know loneliness and some tough times are ahead, but you can pull through. You have the grit and sheer bullheadedness that it takes.

And can I tell you you're damn lucky to be able to cry like that in the first place?

phoenix said...

@jeya
thankx...nothing as such...

@nefty
sorry pal... i am not talking up tags..check a new posts back

@superunknown
:)

@sharad
awww
*HUG*

@suki..
yeah mayb...
shrug

Sunshine gal said...

****Hugs***....***Hugs***...Sum more....***Hugs***...

We have been told that getting hurt is a part of growing up....Its now that we realise that we keep on growing through out our LIFE...Therez no stopping...Therez no looking back...& da moment we stop to grow,that very moment we cease to live!!May b pain IS an integral part of our life...

Superunknown said...

Sure buddy u can blogroll me. its my pleasure.

Heartfelt thanks for your wishes...

Luv
Superunknown

phoenix said...

@ipsy
*HUG*

yeah i do agree that indeed pain is an integral part of our life


@superunknown
gee thankx!:P

Shamash said...

*hug*

`NEFTY said...

Let it out, it only makes you feel better...:]

Prashant said...

dont loose hope is the morale of teh story

Smiles :)

Lisa Francisco aka AVIANA said...

hey sweetie!

thanks for stopping by...touching post...is there something wrong?

Priyanka Sarkar said...

cheer up dear....
touching post though...

Rajeev said...

what happenen now!?
:(