Sunday, July 22, 2007

dilemma

Things are going downhill from the last few days...and its been a really tough patch...friends became strangers all of a sudden and the place i once considered heaven once now seems like a prison cell...and the problem lies with me of course...i have been toying with the idea to either stop blogging or deleting this blog and have a new one...too many people i know personally read this...and NOW that unnerves me...and despite not liking it i really cant do anything about it...for all those who read my blog and know me personally or virtually,know that i write whatever i feel,and one who knows me will know just what i am talking bout in my blog.Masquerading my thoughts and emotions had never been my forte..so now even more i feel vulnerable...i am at a loss what is it that i should do?should i delete my blog and start again?any comments is highly appreciable....i have been listening to this song called Let It Be -Beatles and it somehow has soothed me in my time of need...ending my post here i'm leaving you guys with this song,tell me how it was and your suggestions....

11 comments:

Minko said...

I am no mother mary who wud speak words of wisdom to a sharp girl like you, still I feel the sound of music is too beautiful and that darkness cannot be the permanent inferno of our hapless existence.

so dont delete this blog, it's a request from someone who has experienced these kind of things before.

Sunshine gal said...

Why should you delete this blog??Does it really matter that those who do not matter any longer will be reading through your private thoughts????If they r like strangers then treat them as such...Having said all that...I still think that its best to lie low for sometime...instead of posting up blogs that will incur the wrath of others...spend ample time with yourself....things r bound to improve basically coz it cant get any worse....So just hang in there a lil longer....

starry nights said...

I think i shud quote you here.."tough times dont stay.tough ppl do".I'm sure with all the recent happenings in your life you wud cum out trumps and a much stronger willed person.

Rashi said...

Hey things will be well..take care

KAYLEE said...
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kaylee said...

and i hope that you fee,l better soon.

KAYLEE said...

dont delete it!!!!!!!!!!!

Dream catcher said...

u sound like me so much right now..

personally i will aks u dont delete it..everything scribbled is a part of u..ur moments..keep them whatever it takes..or hurts or whatever..

i have been toying with the idea too to delete my blog..anyways..u jst need to hold on for sometime..
leaving blogging..will it help?? do u think so..moments..they make us do outrageous things..isn't it..

so give some more of moments so u act without prejudiced...

I am there too..thats y i think i can very well commiserate with u

Cin said...

Don't even think of deleting it! This is a part of you and your personal growth. There is so much history in your words, and they came from your heart. Why would you want to remove a part of yourself?? Believe me, you are an inspiration and teacher to others and your words are very important. Who cares what some few people may think, when it is so obvious that there are so many of us who love and support you. I cherish the day I came upon your blog, and found your friendship. Look back at your posts and see the ebb and flow. Things may be hard, but they ALWAYS get better again. Please continue to inspire us. Lotsa love

AVIANA said...

wow..i'm sorry with what you're going through...i've been there before...plenty of times...it is hard when friends turn to dust....

i'm all about new beginnings...so thus i would support a new blog only if you want it and if you see it as best...you may feel more free to release your thoughts without worrying if your ex-friends will read it...

problem is, if you choose a new name, no one will know who you are and you will potentially lose alot your blogger friends who won't know it's you unless you clue them in but then again, your old friends may know it's you... hmmm...dilemma...

i hope you pick what's best and makes you happy....

thank you for stopping by and no I did not forget about you in the post...it was just whatever names that come to my head in that second..:) i hope you forgive me... :)

have a nice nite/day

ani said...

and it is but these lyrics that come to my mind after readin ur post....

"When you find yourself in some far off place
and it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly you're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself...

When you make new friends in a brand new town
and you start to think about settling down
The things that would have been lost on you
are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself,
yeah thats when you find yourself

Well you go through life
so sure of where you're headed
And you wind up lost
and its the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, its really just as well
because you find yourself,
yeah that's when you find yourself."

It's a song by brad Paisley...
The decision is urs... :) ~hugs sweets