It feels so strange to interact with people who were "Friends" once but not anymore.they give you those blank looks with no warmth and you,who now have learn't the lesson,and now are like them,look back with the skill to look through their facade. A little perception can do wonders,naive of you who had believed in the good in all but now you know better.They are indifferent but so are you.But your eye notices all without missing anything.A sad smile and a flicker of recognition is the only proof that you realize the change and not lament,which goes unnoticed.And that is just the way you want it.
People no longer make eye contacts!Are they afraid to reveal more than they want?or they fear any kind of connection?why is this fear lurking in their hearts, not to be the person they are trying to dissimulate?
You have learn't among many things,to keep a safe distance even among friends and not waste your emotions on irrelevance.but you have distanced your loved ones too,lest familiarity breeds contempt.Being alone may make you lonesome but it prevents you from being with people who violates your sentiments and use it to their advantage.So now you spare none.You have stopped being benevolent.
Funny how people say you have "changed"!!Just because you don't lap at their feet anymore!If growing up and trying to be a bit selfish for your betterment is being changed well then probably you are.They do it too.Better be the 'moron-who has changed' rather than being a doormat!
A leaf out of my daily journal.