last night as lay trying to get some sleep,an unknown feeling gripped me almost strangulating me.totally restless and panicked i managed to gulp down some water to calm myself.i have never traveled alone that too in an unknown city.i have been away from mom dad but never this far.my trip maybe of just 5 days but so many hundred miles away from home and family weighed down upon me like anything.i tried to reason myself, that i would eventually have to leave in a year and half's time for my post grads and then it would not be a matter of five days or an unknown land,it would be an adjustment i would have to endure and to get the feel of it,now is the time.
always hailed as my daddy's girl rather boy, this is the second time in my life that i am feeling so lost thinking that id be away from dad.the thought so destructive that i almost begged dad to cancel the trip and let me stay.packings have been done,i leave by 3 this afternoon and despite the excitement and the thrill i feel deja vu.i wonder how so many people do this every year, staying away from home and family.it must be tough na Mann?
so many things are planned,places to visit,people to meet shopping to do.it will be a whole new experience.there has been so many road blocks initially that i cant even believe that the day to leave has finally arrived.this trip is about to teach me a lot,but first of it it made me realize just how much i happen to love dad and how much my home and family means to me.i don't know if ever i will be able cut off the my umbilical cord with my home and family and move on with life,no matter how much i love samik this is just one thing now i feel i can never outgrow.my usually naughty niece too yesterday almost broke down saying that she would miss me and gave me strict instructions to behave myself and take care,she was going out of her way to be extra nice to me.the special treatment that i am receiving now due to my pending trip will one of the reasons why i will look forward to planning another one :P having said all that,as samik rightly said I'm a great planner and not a good executioner :( its fun to plan a trip but when it comes to move away from all things familiar i tend to step back a step.will miss you dad!:(
here's hoping the next few days are joyous and happy for everyone.have a fun weekend and miss me while im gone :P...cheerio!