Friday, April 04, 2008

i woke up today to a heavenly morning a perfect treat to last few weeks of harsh slogging.i woke up to feeling very cold,almost shivery.i managed to pry open an eye to check the mobile clock.7.15am! shit! just imagine!last few weeks i have been trying to wake up by 7.30 so that i have a few extra hours before i have to rush off to college and today on such a perfect day i get to wake up even before my alarm went off!the sky had darkened and the curtains were being tossed by the cool breeze as the pitter patter rain drop continued.

last few weeks all i have been doing is running from once class to another.writing kilometers and kilometers of parchments of notes that i have already exhausted 3 copies in just 3 months.tests and preparation took my time and all i seem to be doing is slog,to push myself to the hilt.the reason is more than one,i was just channelizing my frustration and anger to a positive direction.why sit and mop?so when i woke up today the temptation of not giving into not going to college almost seduced me when the clear sky brought an end to all my romantic wanderings of my heart! sigh!

sometimes i wonder if hard work pays after all i have been in this grind for months now when i see others seem to be having a good time and sailing through life without the hard work?then i think i should not bother if it does because i should be happy with whatever i am doing.results and what others are doing and how is irrelevant!i read it somewhere and it has kind of stuck "people who care not matter,and people who matter don't care" and this has become my thread of logic for all those in my class who are insecure about themselves, who spread baseless "rumours" about people just to satisfy themselves with an illusion.who cares what others think as long as i know i am right!there will always be a cruella in every sphere of life who will dedicate her life to wreck yours, the trick is not to bother.so the jhonny bravos who think taking a jive at people will yield to some moments of mirth can think again! since virtue and morality and in that case dignity all gone for a toss its a time to replace these with laughter and frolic,or so it seems.

its amusing to see life becoming so grotesque and so appalling.but then even in murky waters blossoms the lotus and hence there is always a lesson to learn with every incident that occurs to us.


P.S- a big THANK YOU to all those who commented on my last post!i was feeling extremely down and a bit neglected as i thought my blogger friends had forgotten all about me but the comments really touched me and in more ways than one i feel blessed.thanks once again!

4 comments:

c e e d y said...

Well it your nature - you love to work and really hard - if you question it and say you dont - you might feel miserable...

and it does pay as long as you keep focused...maybe not moneywise but satisfaction that you can do something and make a change in somebody's life.

Bubbles of FireWhiskey said...

hey raka... you and tanuj are more alike than you think... he cribs if he has work but would be completely unhappy without it as well... the important thing is that you know what you're doing and so you will reap your rewards, sweets...

phoenix said...

@CEEDY
yeah true satisfaction is all that really matters come to think of it! :)

@fire
working hard does give a kick ya...i know just what you meean :P

mayz said...

d only thing i feel which pays without fail is hard work...so if u have really put in ur 100% u'll b rewarded for it...all d best