You will ask what the purpose of writing this is. And I’m silent. I know not what to tell you. No I’m not in love with you. Yes I am happy in my life now and I’m looking forward to my future. I guess I am just trying to make peace with something that marked a change in my life; forever.
I don’t know where you are now. I have almost forgotten your face. But I still battle with the memories which are no longer a source of pleasure but a reminder of something I would never like to remember. Sometimes when I walk past your old house, my mind drifts to you but in an instant that too is forgotten. I keep coming across things that remind me of you. I should cringe in remembrance but I don’t. I wonder how I could change thus, that nothing related to you affects me anymore, no fear or nostalgic grips me. But I can’t do away with you completely I try but I can’t. Why? No I have no hangover of what was, I don’t want to recreate the past. I am happy in my present but past comes back now and then to remind me that were there, that it had all happened you were there. It is not just my imagination.
Years have passed. I hope you have moved on. I want you to know I am happy and in love. I have a happy tomorrow waiting for me, when the person I love the most awaits me for the rest of my life. I want you to be happy too, in whatever you do. I want you to move on beyond the shadows of the past. I hope you will rise above the guilty feeling of pushing me away from you. I have forgiven you, but I can never come back. I hold you in the highest regard, and I wish you the world of happiness. Heed to my request and walk away from the past; which will give you nothing but grief and unhappiness. Accept that what happened can never be altered. Embrace reality, hold my hand in friendship and let me guide you to the golden sunrise, from where a new life will begin with a new tomorrow. Time has not run out, if only you make an effort. I will be there, like I have been always, as a friend always there in need, trust me. Let not your past mar the future you can build and the happiness that can be all yours if only you reach out.