Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Ashamed

Just the thing i had always feared. the reason i hated even drinking was because i was scared that drinking would make me drunk and on being drunk i would vent all my pent up emotions and cry. and my fears were realized... and i sobbed endlessly for hours altogether i guess and there was little i could do.

Today when i woke up and remembered what happened, i am ashamed for what i did and i promise the next time i will never drink, not surely to drown my emotions but i will try and be brave like i usually am. I'm not proud of what happened and i know i will never repeat it again.Ever! Promise!

15 comments:

MultiMenon said...

:I

Ur life,ur principles,ur ideals..upto you to decide wot u gotta take along and wot u needn't.Being forced on ain't a great quality,to be telling around u know?? :)

Nikhil

Chriz said...

first time i got drunk.. i made that same decision.. but i kept on breaking my promises

Arv said...

Never do anything that you are not comfortable with...

take care mate... cheers...

Harshita said...

Ahem!

Well, wat do I say? I am a non-drinker myself.. but u need not feel guilty for letting go...

Its okay!! if u r not happy with watever happened... just make sure it does not happen again...

everyone has a right to venting out their emotions.. so chill!

Qi said...

Good girl. :)

Dhanya said...

I second Arv on this completely! Never EVER do something you're not comfortable with...

You can't avoid making mistakes but even if you do, you have to make sure you learn from them. By the looks of it, I am sure our dear sensible Raka won't let this happen to her again..

cheer up... :)

NE~ISM said...

First of all let me give u a big hug!! (((((raka)))))

It happens whether we r drunk or sober. We feel more calm and confident when drinking that is when our sober thoughts come out!!!

I live you girl and pass no judgements. I just say don't be ashamed. We all have been there sober or intoxicated!!

Leo said...

be back to phoenix soon! :)

always sober and active! no need to be ashamed.. it happens! :)

Pesto Sauce said...

Drinking is not bad per se...but drinking irresonsibly surely is

The Rat... said...

my dad used to say "kalavum kattru mara" which translates into "learn and forget even Robbery"

so u tasted alcohol..now u know its effects.. now forget it...


Hugzzz baby

Ria said...

Its fine gurl!!now tht u realise ur mistake, i knw u will not repeat it again.

AD said...

always be comfortable and then make a go for it :)

we all make our share of uncomfortable mistakes :)

Sumit said...

Isn't that's why they say know your limits?? By all means, drink. But if always till the point you can take it. If that means half a drink so be it.

Keshi said...

its ok to experience it just once or twice...u gotta go places to KNOW.

:)

*HUGZ*

Keshi.

the silent observer said...

I have drank but never got drunk before..wonder how that will be.. It's scary to let people know of your innermost inhibitions...its difficult for me to imagine that..I totally understand your emotions on this one..nice post...personal and touchy