Friday, April 08, 2011

Sleepless..

Its just one of those days when sleep evades me and there is a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach.. churning it so bad that i feel like puking... maybe i am upset.. maybe i am just sad... maybe i am just PMSing but something is not right..

Nostalgia was a constant companion today.. memories from different phases of my life resurfaced and i was struck by the lightening speed with which time is passing by... I can still vividly remember my childhood days, playing cricket with friends on the streets, shorts, tees and skirts were the order of the day. Worries meant homework, happiness meant summer holidays, reward meant an ice cream and fun meant playing with friends..life is whole lot different now somehow. Its hard to just say things without having the fear of being misinterpreted, actions are judged on parameters of morality and acceptance and emotions are often misconstrued as indifference. There are so many veils people wear, so many different masks that it gets difficult to recognize people... As we grow older our mind gets accustomed to the people around us, ego sits in, and even the strongest of bonds between two people breaks. Nothing really surprises me anymore and i wonder if that is a good thing.. isnt it a good thing if you get upset if your friend of 18 years refuses to talk to you? isnt it right if you cry after a fight with loved one? shouldnt it matter if your entire life is falling apart right in front of you? To me somehow all this has stopped making sense...Guess sometimes life gets the better of you and you can do nothing but go with the flow... I am in one such phase..

Anyway gloom breeds more of its like if given time... so i ll end this one right here, really random post I know...sometimes bouts of insanity makes you feel a lot saner... Hope you guys are doing good? Promise will read and comment on your blogs first thing from office.. Btw this was my 650th post! :) yay me...Goodnight people.. time to hit the bed...

7 comments:

☆ Rià ღ said...

Aah 650th post is quite a feat achieved sweetie!! And abt the phase...well what do i say, "Been there, done that". God bless n take care, i knw u will.

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

Why is it that today all I am reading is such posts. Nothing wrong with the posts, but then, it makes me nostalgic too. :P :D

Nice post. And go get some sleep.

Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete

rainboy said...

650 posts...wow... You write a ton ,I have not even reached my 200th in 3 years .

Live!! Do what makes you happy. That's the best way to get out of the phase you're in.

anyways, take care :)

Neeha said...

650 posts great baby!!
Nostalgic movements are both a curse & gift!!!!

Eon Heath said...

Hey, Hi
well, true moents of insanity keeps us sane at times...and nostalgia is good at times too.. :)
i remembered a saying a friend of mine once told me. "Day by day, nothing changes, but when you look back, everything has changed"
there is so much to learn from this one line. Have you ever thought, why dont we realise that change when it happens gradually? day by day? coz, even we change and unknowingly we are adapt ourselves to that change...

650th post!! way to go gal..nice..
:D

Regards,
The Silhouette...

Yamini Meduri said...

after a long time am here and yes, the Phoenix is bak..!!!

dear, memories are always painful yet sweet..!!!

Today when i am packing all my stuff so dat i can shift from pune to hyderabad, i suddently realized that its all over here..!!
it was sad..!!

Kanishk said...

during times like these Jim Morrison's golden words help :)