We put on so many masks to survive life that we eventually lose track of our real face. We live in that illusion till reality dawns! Life!
So we plunge ourselves into a life or someone hoping to forget the pain plaguing the heart, hoping that it would eventually go away; until we realize the reklecklessness of it all! But then what do you have to lose anyway?
So you brush aside those muted sobs, remove the kohl stains and pretend to smile. Often it works as it fools others and yourself until faking hurts and you realize that doing something drastic does more harm to yourself eventually, it doesn't really matter to those, not in your life anymore!
Realisations! Life and endless pit of despair!